"Smoking" and how its so "wonderfully bad"
Feel the smooth puffs of smoke escaping the couples slightly parted lips...watch the velvety rings of smoke ascend, as its slowly drifting together....disappearing into the misty haze above...
uhhh...ahem...sorry...I got carried away again....
Anyway, Im addicted to the evil cigarettes...yes I smoke...and Im a slave to it. And it bothers me. What bugs me most is that Im not in control of neither mind nor body...meaning...even if I've ever wanted to quit I couldnt...Ive tried many times, but I felt it was pointless....was always unsuccessful.
Dont get me wrong guys, smoking is indeed a pleasure for me, and I enjoy every minute of it...but it will always leave me with a guilty conscience.
I look at it as an act of masochism. It might sound a little extreme. But thats what it is. Has that thought ever crossed your mind?
Theres a part of me saying...ahh...screw it lady...what da hell...enjoy it...youll stop whenever you'll stop. But theres this other side saying hey its wrong!
I guess thats exactly what addiction is all about...it takes over every part of you and controls you...wether you like it or you dont..
Anyway...blah...blah...
wondering if theres any one out there that can relate to this predicament
or not-
would like to hear from you anyway...
posted by beautiful-stranger @ Tuesday, December 05, 2006
18 Comments:
At December 06, 2006,
Y.Y. said…
yes i feel the same way but since i only smoke about 5 to 6 joints a day i guess its not too much every now and then i think that im poisening myself but then i think what the heck its soooooooo good to smoke btw i smoke newport lights they are awesome lol
At December 07, 2006,
ggggg said…
I can relate to you 100% I have quit smoking hundreds of times! yet, I just had another cig! grrrrrrrrrrrrr.
At December 07, 2006,
yingerman said…
I have smoked just once. a long time ago, in a galaxy far...
Whatever.
Hey beauty wanna stay that way?
Quit!
You'll be glad you did.
At December 07, 2006,
David_on_the_Lake said…
I have to say...smoking absolutely disgusts me to no end. I just can't understand it..I cant stand close to a smoker....
Smokers blogs are ok though...lol
At December 07, 2006,
yeshivaguy said…
I used to smoke; it was very enjoyable. But I did not like being a slave to the cigarette, and quit cold turkey. I've been non-smoking for many years now, and find that I have come to hate the smell of stale smoke in rooms and on clothing, but still enjoy the smell of fresh cigarette smoke.
At December 07, 2006,
Y.Y. said…
ah nothing like fresh cigarette smoke
At December 07, 2006,
FunkyJew82 said…
i know this might sound stupid, but i've heard several times that hypnotists have successfully rid smokers of their smoking desires. just thought u MAY want to look into it. if i was a smoker i'd look into it.
me??.... i'm a drinker! =) (hickup!)
At December 07, 2006,
beautiful-stranger said…
y.y.: yup thats exactly right, youre in a constant debate w/ yourself. p.s. who doesnt like the smell of fresh cigs...mmm...
lakewood: I feel your pain.
hey, yingerman its easeir said then done.
David: thanx for letting me know, i'll keep my distance when I light a cig.
yeshivaguy: welcome, so youre an ex smoker?
At December 07, 2006,
beautiful-stranger said…
funky: my bro tried hypnosis a couple o times, and he smokes more then anything...didnt realy help...
I also have a hard time keeping away from the bottle sometimes...oh well...is there hypnosis for that too?
At December 07, 2006,
BagelUndertheCouch said…
wow, that's intense. do what makes you happy. after all the craziness you've been through, i think you deserve it!
At December 08, 2006,
Pragmatician said…
I can't relate as I have no temptation to smoke, but whenever I try to change a bad habit, I give almost before I start to try.
Have you considered hypnosis?
At December 10, 2006,
Anonymous said…
any habit is really tough to break, and i have plenty i need to change
At December 11, 2006,
socialworker/frustrated mom said…
So sorry you got into the habbit, I know from a fam member how hard it is to quit so I don't judge. I am very against smoking even a little.
At December 13, 2006,
beautiful-stranger said…
bagel: well..isnt that just an excuse..but yea i think i do deserve it by all means
prag: eyy dont give up.
this whole hypnosis thing freaks me out
chusid: lots of luck
smfm: thank you;)
limey: woohoo!
1 day and counting...
At December 13, 2006,
Open Up! said…
well this is my first visit to your blog and what a way to start...i am extremely against smoking especially for women...so not feminine...are you aware that besides for the beautiful blackening of the lungs and the uplifting gasping for breath...your nails and teeth get yellow, your hair gets brittle...i mean if that's not a reason to smoke what is? quit now quit today don't wait for emphysima (sp?)CV!!!!
not to be all negative...i've been scrolling down and i like your articles i'll be visiting regualrly i'yh :)
At December 17, 2006,
pint-sized said…
Sure, everyone's addicted to something, even if they don't realise it. It might just be something completely simple like being addicted to the order that you wash yourself in the shower or even being addited to a certain amount of sleep, but addiction is just a trick of the mind. Your body might ask for it, but there's a moment when you can either take control or say to hell with it. Most people choose the latter.
At December 18, 2006,
beautiful-stranger said…
I agree
At July 16, 2008,
Anonymous said…
There is a way to get rid of this addiction. did you hear about EFT?
http://tinyurl.com/5edzr5
Not worth it to damage your health. You are healthy and beautiful. Why ruin it?
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